This is by far the most personal piece I have ever created out of the twelve. It also, possibly, one of my most morbid works to date. For this piece is a more introspective piece with no mental disorder in mind. This piece is more of what allows me, in my opinion, to create such twisted works of art. In this self-portrait I expose the face behind the eyes. Like the last few pieces, I made an outline in pen before going over it with copic markers for detail work. After that, the black and red streaks were added via smudging in an attempt to make a more gritty appearance. Without spoiling much, this piece is filled with symbolism about what goes on within my mind and my very own brand of twisted imagination.
Being one of my last few pieces, I found myself quite please with the outcome of this piece. For those of you who don't know, Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) is a personality disorder categorized into the B cluster disorders. This cluster is comprised of personality disorders known for erratic, exaggerated, or otherwise over the top behavior. Those with narcissistic personality disorder are known for their extreme sense of self-worth. Many have egos the size of Texas and are generally considered shallow people. These people can also fly off the handle should someone threaten their self-image, but some are better at control than others. For this piece I wanted to capture that shallow and surface only beauty that most narcissists have. This piece shows that facade cracking away, almost like porcelain chip off a doll. Thus, exposing the inner, possessive beast that wears that face of an angel. Messing with a narcissists self-image can be cause quite unpredictable changes in mood. In this case, this piece includes self-harm and slight madness. Overall, I think this piece was one of my favorite "illness" works. I really think I have progress into a more gritty look, but not quite yet. The blood and dripping black I think turned out quite well. In summary, I good progression and lovely symbolic piece.
This piece was created based on the fear of machinery and advanced technology. Now more than ever, the fear of AI and machines taking over humanity has been at all time high. Most of this commotion has to do with the rise in advancing artificial intelligence and various robotics design to do jobs for people. This has lead to a big distrust and paranoia about such technological marvels. So much so it is almost how everyone is, in one way or another, afraid of spiders. This tehcnophobia is the basis of my piece in the form of a cyborg like figure, who is slowly being turned into more of a machine than a man. This piece was made using a penned outline and than shaded with copic markers. The shirt was made via prisma colored pencils. In general, this piece was similar to what I had in mind, but not quite. Personally, I am working on more realistic drawings in order to give my more morbid pieces a
more realistic feel to them. This machinery based piece would be no different. Aside from getting better, I think I could have done better with the dark and light areas in the internal gears and pistons. Aside from that, I think I could also make it more gritty and have a more used appearance to it. All in all a pretty average piece, but a stepping stone none the less. For this piece I decided illustrate the fear of religion and went for a deity to really illustrate this. For this I decided to go for the Hindu goddess Kali, which is known as the goddess of destruction and death. She is said to be the destroyer of evil and the incarnation of Shiva, which is the creator and the destroyer. Aside from lore and stories, people with theophobia have an unconditional fear of religious iconography depicting a deity or sometimes the sight of religious servicemen and buildings can cause anxiety. For this piece I decide to go for purple as the main skin color with greys to help with shadows. I used various references from memory to decided on the various implements our goddess here would be using. Overall, this piece has some points I like and others I did not. Since I only had one purple, I felt that my overall choice of lights and darks was somewhat limited. Another thing I would have fixed would be the shading on some of the items she is carrying in her hand. The things I did find successful was the hair. I wanted a different look to the hair this time which is why I used pen and ink to create it instead of shades of grey or browns. Overall, I think this piece was successful but also allow me to self-critique on what I should work on in the next piece.
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